results are back.
somehow,
im alr kinda immune to getting seriously sucky grades.
for now,
maths is a U.
lit is safe.
the rest,
unsure.
:/
to pass.
is alr a miracle.
sub-pass.
im happy with it.
anything lower,
im used to it.
really sad eh.
like,
i feel kinda.
pathetic.
im considering to change my route.
to consider abt the 2nd intake of poly.
i dont wanna retain in yj, and spend another year there.
i dont wanna regret at the end of the year,
thinking that i should have switched to poly instead.
im in a serious dilemma.
one side of me feels that i should head to poly.
for maybe.
im not of jc calibre.
but yet,
another side of me feels that if i wanna fulfil my ambition,
i should continue with this route ive chosen.
mann.
its tough.
i know im prolly just running away frm this problem.
there is a solution.
but the thing is,
i dont know where to start frm.
poly.
i'll have to start frm scratch.
getting new friends.
fitting in all over again.
having to work extra harder to catch up.
stay on.
work like freaking freaking hard.
and get a place in uni.
deep down,
i have this really strong fear in me.
ayeeee.
on the brighter side,
at least like there are still friends who are in this together with me,
supporting each other all the way.
:)
ok.
i shall stop being all so depressed.
and smile more. :D
oh btw,
laughing helps to lose weight ok.
wanna lose weight?
LAUGH MORE.
:)
short summary of today.
pe was good. :)
my mealtimes are back to weird timings again. :)
gp teacher was alright. :)
plus,
a rather productive pw meeting.
home at 8 plus reaching 9pm.
which leaves me half dead by now.
:)
hahaha.
k.
im trying really hard to smile more.
with a motive behind it.
HAH.
LOSE WEIGHT.
:)
true friends,
they play a huge role in my life.
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