something happened today. shant elaborate more about it. it is not something nice to say it out. both parties will feel awkward. but, i am involved in it. well, i feel that i did something that is kinda. hMmM. *thinking of the right word to use* mean?!? whatever it is, i dont know whether i did the right thing or not. okay. doing something mean obviously isnt the right thing. but, its hard to explain how i really feel. dont know whether to feel guilty doing that or not. dont know whether to pity *sensored* or not. dont know whether to feel that *sensored* deserves it or not. somehow inside me, i just feel that if i were to be *sensored*, i would be really very hurt. i would just feel disappointed. it would be really hurting. thats why i partly pity *sensored* but then again, i think *sensored* somehow deserves it. i mean not that i am very bian tai to want ppl to suffer or what. but i just feel that this should be like a lesson learn. i am just contradicting myself. but thats what i really feel. basically, i just dont know what to do next. whats done cannot be undone. now, it is to think of the next step i should take. i really dont know what to do tml. think it will be really weird. weird as in not weird. but just. erMm. weird?!? confused by me. *laughs* i am also confused by myself. maybe weird is really not the right word. a better word would be odd and uncomfortable. owell, just hope that everything will be fine tml. =)) okay. i shall chaoz now. sleep early ppl!! take care!! nitez nitez~!
